Thursday, April 29, 2010

CT Scan

Monday was the long awaited CT scan. Hopefully, for the next two years, this will be an every four months experience. Faina pretty much puts all planning on hold in the weeks leading up to the scan and then is a little more open to contemplating trips, concerts, and medium term planning after seeing the report. Monday's scan was clean, other than some thickening of the intestinal walls, an indication of anything from irritation to a recurrence of the disease. A colonoscopy is on the Friday calendar. Thank you Dr. Silverman for finding time on your schedule for a pre-op check-up ("How soon can you get over here?") and Dr. Gertner for the discovery of a warp in the time-space continuum. And so we ride the waves, from crest to trough, up and down.

Faina has been working, three days a week since the beginning of the month. Her energy level is good. She rarely makes it through the first segment of the Daily Show.

Wednesday, April 7, 2010

Back to Work

Faina is back at work. She was warmly greeted by her colleagues with flowers, cake and cards. She is feeling comfortable with a syringe and a drill in her hands and is thrilled to be back in the frenzy of a busy office.

We are in an uncomfortable anniversary zone. It was on April 6, 2009 that an endoscopy discovered a growth and on April 13th that we got word that it was cancer. All of this was woven into Pesach, Hag HaHeruteinu, the Festival of Our Liberation. My hopes are that this coming year will be one of liberation from this insideous disease.

As I sat in shul on Shabbat, the reading of Shir HaShirim led me to reflect on Faina.
Arise, my beloved, my fair one, and come away.
For behold, the winter has passed; the rain is over and gone.
The blossoms have appeared in the land, the time of singing has arrived,
and the voice of the turtledove is heard in our land ...
Arise my beloved, my fair one, and come away. (Shir HaShirim 2:10-13)

Ahead will be a coming away from a year-long winter. The landscape has changed, as has our perception of it. It is a time to sing, to open up our senses and to give new expression to our experience of the world. It is time to arise, to greet the dawn of a new day.